And I hate it. I wish I could talk to someone about it, but I don’t even know it myself. I hope this weird mental state will clear itself up soon.

imkellioness:

February 1, 2010 by Parker Fitzgerald on Flickr.

I wish you were here to listen to this thunderstorm with me. It’s epic as hell.
Love, forever and always,
Bianca, your future bride

arosebyanyothername10:

His voice enchants and haunts me,
like a memory; longed to be forgotten,

and yet fought for to be remembered.

Started out awful. My biggest self-conflict had kicked in full gear, and I woke up in a panic attack. It progressively got better because I distracted myself with a book and the Internet. And then it got even better when my friend Bridgette came over. =) today ended up being one of the best days I’ve had in a long time, and I am so grateful to have such awesome people in my life. I don’t know what I did to deserve such great friends, but thank you =)

because of all these questions racing through my head. I cannot figure out why all of these self-conflicts suddenly had to come NOW. And all at once too. All I’m trying to do is figure them out, one at a time; but they just keep piling on at lightning speed. Maybe I’ll go on a bike ride or something to try to ease the tension. I want to get this past me.

Just really lost and disconnected with yourself? I feel like the past couple days, I’ve just had a lot of self-struggles and I don’t even understand why. I’m doing awesome with my challenge, and I’m headed in a good direction that way. But I feel like there are other personal things that are really confusing me. I hope that this funk or whatever it is will pass soon; I don’t like being out of the loop, especially if that loop is my own.